Thank you again, Meka! Your one comment on December 9 (that I actually just discovered moments ago) has compelled me to write. Out in this vast world of over 7 billion souls, one person, YOU, took the time out of your busy life to not only log onto the The Recovering Attorney blog but you actually COMMENTED………………
Why the almost 4 year silence?
The world, my World is such a different place since I last connected with my Dear Readers back in late 2011. The singular, most significant difference in my world since we last connected (the reason why I put down my cyber-pen) is that my Precious Mother, my Rock, my Muse, my Best Friend ceased to exist in the world with me.
Since March of 2012 my world has not been the same. Are the major parts of me “healed?” Yes. Have I continued to Live, Love, Travel, Enjoy, Laugh, Explore, Pray since March of 2012? Yes. Am I Happy and Grateful for all that I continue to have in my world? Yes. Do I appreciate all of the Friendships, Personal Growth and Life Lessons that I have experienced since March of 2012? Yes. But here is the rub: Are the minor parts of me “healed?” No. And those minor parts will never oxidize, turn purple, develop a scab and heal over.
The hurt. The invisible yet tangible open wound that is my lost—that unhealed minor part of me will (unfortunately) forever be open, fresh, swollen at the surface and tender to the touch. But that’s okay. That wound is not suppose to simply “heal over.” That invisible wound, that hurt is proof (for me anyway) that She Lived, She Loved, She Laughed, She Explored, She Prayed and She is Painfully Missed.
And as Marci would often say to her only child: “The Original Recovering Attorney (insert the Mommy, “pet” version of my actual name), it is what it is!”
“Yes it is, Mommy!”
Stay tuned for Part II of the world of The Original Recovering Attorney….Ha!
The Original Recovering Attorney Un-Blog, copyright 2015 and I will sue. Ha!